The impact of deconstruction on mental health (Part 1 of 2)
Religious deconstruction isn’t just changing your mind about some arbitrary theological details. Deconstruction is a cognitive, emotional, relational, and spiritual-existential process. It can be lonely, painful, and even traumatic, though many people who have experienced it do not regret their choices.
If you have deconstructed or are deconstructing, your mental health is very likely being affected, and you can benefit from talking to a mental health provider who specializes in working with religious deconstruction.
Please note - deconstruction can refer to the process of changing beliefs about many different ideologies. For the purposes of this article, from here on out when I say “deconstruction” it refers to “religious deconstruction.”
The current American political climate has contributed to the ongoing pattern of religion decreasing in importance in public life. If the government’s use of Christian scripture, beliefs, practices, and rituals feels confusing, disturbing, or horrifying to you, you’re not alone. The American Psychological Association notes that “according to a February 2025 Pew Research Study, 35% of U.S. adults have switched or left religion since childhood, leading to an increase in the religiously unaffiliated.” Yet deconstruction isn’t just a trend, as people of faith have been wrestling with and questioning their beliefs for as long as we’ve had them (and that’s a whole separate blog post).
Deconstruction, or questioning a system of beliefs taught or imposed by others, tends to be an ongoing process rather than a single event, especially for people who were raised within a religious context. Their religious beliefs are tied into the very development of their nervous system, and don’t tend to untangle themselves neatly overnight. Deconstruction can happen while in a faith community, while leaving it, or because of leaving it.
I have experienced two major periods of deconstruction in my life, both equally devastating and freeing. And I’m still deconstructing today, by the way, though what I’m deconstructing from now looks less like fundamentalist Christianity and looks more like colonialism, patriarchy, ableism, and white supremacy.
Deconstruction is a cognitive experience because it involves sorting through, assessing, and wrestling with thoughts and beliefs about who we are, the way the world is, who God is, who others are, how to live a good life, and more. Many high-control religious environments discourage folks from even letting themselves have questioning or doubtful thoughts, let alone express them, because they often don’t have very satisfactory answers to those questions. Deconstruction is often related to and/or caused by cognitive dissonance, which is “a state of mental discomfort that occurs when a person holds beliefs or opinions that are inconsistent, or that conflict with an aspect of their behavior.”
Folks often experience the following cognitive symptoms if they have started deconstructing:
Intrusive thoughts
Racing thoughts
Consistent worry
Playing “what if” scenarios about the future
Obsessing over past conversations/interactions in a religious setting
Feeling torn between questions/curiosity and a harsh inner critic
General mental distress and discomfort
Deconstruction is also an emotional experience, especially as many faith communities strongly discourage it and imply punishment of some kind if you are experiencing doubt. Many Christian churches also teach that if you deconstruct, you may go to hell, which obviously induces terror and fear.
Deconstruction can involve the following emotional symptoms:
Persistent and excessive guilt
Shame spiraling
Terror and panic
Dread
Hopelessness
Isolation and loneliness
Self-doubt and paranoia
Anxiety
Anger and rage
Sadness and despair
Grief
These cognitive and emotional symptoms can also lead to difficulties with sleeping, eating, motivation, and energy. Our religious and spiritual beliefs impact every area of our health, including mental health.
From my lived experience as well as professional expertise, I specialize in working with folks experiencing or recovering from religious deconstruction. Whether deconstruction leads you to an identity as an exvangelical, a religious “none,” an atheist, spiritual-but-not-religious, another faith altogether, or just a different type of Christianity, you don’t have to go through it alone. If you’d like to learn more about therapy for religious deconstruction, visit my page on it or schedule a consult call below.
Check back later for Part 2 where we’ll discuss more about the relational and existential-spiritual aspects of deconstruction.